I'm freaking in love with the song "Tracks of My Tears" originally sung by Smokey Robinson, but this is the Adam Lambert version on American Idol. I think I've had it on repeat for more than half an hour and it's only a 2 minute track. This video plays the studio version and the live version. I personally am in love with the LIVE version because it's just more emotional. The studio one is more like the original and doesn't really get me like the other one.
Lyrics: People say I'm the life of the party Because I tell a joke or two Although I might be laughing loud and hearty Deep inside I'm blue So take a good look at my face You'll see my smile looks out of place If you look closer, it's easy to trace The tracks of my tears.. I need you, need you Since you left me if you see me with another girl Seeming like I'm having fun Although she may be cute She's just a substitute Because you're the permanent one.. So take a good look at my face You'll see my smile looks out of place If you look closer, it's easy to trace The tracks of my tears.. I need you, need you Outside I'm masquerading Inside my hope is fading Just a clown oh yeah Since you put me down My smile is my make up I wear since my break up with you.. So take a good look at my face You'll see my smile looks out of place If you look closer, it's easy to trace The tracks of my tears
Why do we do the dumb things we do?Sometimes knowingly, we continue to go through with them.Sometimes you argue that you don't realize at
the moment what you're doing is dumb.
It's a given that people do a lot of dumb things, myself included.I know they're dumb, but sometimes I just
don't stop myself.Maybe I don't know
how to, maybe I don't want to.I haven't
quite figured out which one it is.
I have a theory that people tend to convince themselves by legitimizing
the situation so as to not feel guilty about what they've done.Not only do they lie to others, but most of
all, they lie to themselves so much to the point that they start believing it
was okay. Yet, I'm sure that somewhere,
deep deep down inside, they know the truth.The problem is they don't want to realize it; really, they're in denial
and just refuse to resurface.
Marcus argues that people know exactly what they're doing is stupid but
consciously continue to go through with it anyway.The difference in his theory is that he
believes people aren't complex enough to believe their own lies.But they would still lie to others to convince
the ones around them otherwise.
While my theory seems to have many twists and turns, his is more
straight forward.I wonder if this
might be just a difference of opinions or a difference of gender.One thing we can agree on is that no one can escape
being foolish; some do dumb things all the time, some are smarter and only
manage to screw up only once every so often.One day, I hope to become smarter.
I always thought that flashbacks happened just like the ones in movies and tv shows. This would be where you're in the present and it fades into a distant memory; repeating everything exactly as it was, sometimes lasting minutes or more.
The flashbacks that I've experienced are kinda different then those, they kinda pinch you a little. It's actually kinda weird, I would be walking or just sitting there and suddenly my mind flashes. I'm not saying this happens to me all the time, just a couple of times of a very specific event. For a good few seconds I can picture everything exactly as it was; like I was actually there again. It felt as if someone pinched my brain and I would actually squint a bit in reaction. The difference between this and a real pinch is that it didn't actually hurt, and I squint because I get surprised by the sudden flash.
Even though it really is just a flash in a few seconds of my memory, it's enough to trigger the rest of it to come rushing back once I've opened my eyes and return to the present. I think that this situation just stuck with me because it wasn't a time I'm particularly proud of and also kind of confused over all about it. I let myself lose control of the situation and didn't exactly handle it in the best way.
Now I sit here and wonder how I can make up for it. Should I? Do I really want to? What if I make things even worst? I'm still confused...
"Never show anyone. They'll beg you and they'll flatter you for the secret, but as soon as you give it up... you'll be nothing to them." -Alfred Borden (aka Christian Bale)
This quote kinda stuck with me since I saw the movie The Prestige, and that's when it first came out in I don't even remember when. Here he's referring to the secret behind the tricks they perform. It's so true though; when you find out how the magician really does it, it's n o l o n g e r a m a z i n g , n o l o n g e r s p e c i a l , n o l o n g e r a t t r a c t i v e.
Not only does this apply in terms of magic, but I find that it actually holds true to a lot of things that go on around us. Like a video game, once you've told your friends how to do your special move, you're no longer the best player, because everyone else has either figured how to counter you or can do the same thing that once was unique to you. Okay, maybe not the best example, but I live in an arcade, so it's kinda hard to avoid.
I wonder if this also applies when you like someone. Once you've found out all you can about that person, you'd get bored of them because the mystery is gone; no longer enticing.
Love, like the magic trick. I think that people want to be fooled at times, they want to think that there's something more than normal behind it. Normal is boring. People want to feel enchanted. It's fun to search for the truth, but I don't think they r e a l l y r e a l l y r e a l l y want to know the truth because once that truth is found, the game is over.
....the second half of the quote... "The secret impresses no one. The trick you use it for is everything." -Alfred Borden (aka Christian Bale)
